Love drains me out. Or maybe, it is the idea of love that drains me out. I remember a DC Talk song called Love is a verb, and, it talks about how love is an action.
And, so this idea, from this song, and, the way I heard Sunday School Teachers and Youth Group leaders, teach this, lead me down an exhausting road of doing.
The problem with love, is that love is not easy. Love, is not the way the Hippies doing it in whoring themselves out. But, maybe they’re right in love by living in pascifism. Living a life of non-violence and peace.
I have people in my life that I try to love. But, that’s the problem. Anyime that I try to love them, I don’t. Because, love doesn’t come out of a doing, it comes out of a being.
I think its good to have the right definion of love, but, I think that the definition is where it stops, and, we spend our whole lives trying to live that out. And, as far as effort goes, and, it may make the world a better place, it still doesn’t change the fact, that we aren’t loving people.
Right now, I’m not quite sure how to love, I’m not quite sure if I even do love. Because, when I love, I shouldn’t know it. And, when I think I do, that gratification, was my reward.
So, in my search for love, in how to love, and, more importantly, searching, for what it means to be love, I know, that if this is what it means to be a follower of Jesus, then my thirst for love is my reward, and, hopefully, someday, it will trickle out of me.