Last May, I had an absolute meltdown. I was stressed, burned out, exhausted, and, loss all sense of creativity. I was not happy with most of my relationships, I was not happy with any vocation or service I was involved in, I was not happy with what I was producing, because, all of this reflected this stressed, burned out, exhausted and lack of creative energy that I was feeling. A friend of mine convinced me to take more seriously the Sabbath. I took the next week off from work, and, planned on doing nothing. No work, no school, no writing, no reading….. It was miserable.
I have found we are creatures of busyness, production and without silence. Everywhere we go, we have noise flowing, from our iPods, cd players, radios, TV’s, conversations with our friends. Every day we have things we need to finish. Work, homework, errands, activities, the to do list never ends. I saw how exhausted I was, but, how addicted to these things I was, I think we are systemically hardwired to participate in this though, so cutting down has been a very hard process. Sabbath, something that God has given us to rest, becomes very hard. Nonetheless, even though I still fail at it, I want to share with you some of the things I have learned about Sabbath since May.
-Sabbath is commanded.
– When I treat Sabbath as a law, its worthless. Sabbath doesn’t have to be treated as one particular day, or a specific time. Sabbath, can be any day, and, even minimally every day.
-Sabbath, when done right, gives me the energy I need for the 6 days that will follow.
– Every week, I acquire new wounds and brokenness, or, I leave old ones undealt with. Sabbath gives me the time to heal from the following week, from the hurtful comments I hear, to find rest and freedom from lies I hear and possibly believe, it’s a time to weep and release from all of the pain I see others going through.
– Sabbath kills my need to produce and just be. Sabbath kills the product god Apple (thank God). Sabbath, is the day where I am able to be loved for me. Not for what I give to others, my people pleasing tendencies. It’s the day where I can rest and be loved and accepted as I am.
– Sabbath is a time where I turn off everything and participate in silence. I fight my restless mind, and, my constant thoughts, and, learn to submit to the releasing of all of the compulsive things battling inside of me. In this we often find much peace.
– Sabbath has taught me that I can’t do everything I love, even for those that I do love. I know that when people love me, they also might demand more of me, and, I can’t give them everything they want. I also, can’t work myself to death doing all of the things I love because I need to gather the energy to do that the other days of the week. I know that when I am able to say no to these things, my yes, has much more weight and validation.
Sabbath gives me time to rest, have fun, and, be in peace. Days of Sabbath will often include-
A good nights sleep, and, a nap.
Eating food that I really enjoy eating (I love eating Q’doba and Subway).
Sometimes, smoking a cigar.
Time to play video games.
Going for a walk or a jog, to observe creation.
Lots of Diet Coke.
What brings you rest?
Do you participate in Sabbath?
Do you have anything else to add to what Sabbath gives us?