I have lived 24 years as a human being. The hardest part of being a human being, is being just that….. Human. I have found my ways to build walls. I have found ways to keep people out of my life. I have found ways to hate other human beings. I have spent far to much time blaming and accusing others. I have spent far to much time shaming myself. I have taken the words of Luther to heart that I should sin and sin boldly. All of this has been used to escape the very thing that I am…… A Human Being.
The first two people to walk the earth were Adam and Eve (I hope there is a someone out there that says Adam and Lillith… High Five). If someone were to subscribe to the doctrine of Original Sin (which most do), then the sin of Adam and Eve was eating from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. Something about their knowledge was not enough. They were not content with themselves, they wanted to be God. They couldn’t handle their knowledge, they needed the knowledge of God. We do this all the time. When we judge, accuse and blame ourselves and others, we are participating in a dehumanization of each other. We assume the role of God, or we want to, and we do the very thing to resist what we are…. Human.
To be human is to be broken. This is the wages of sin, death. This is the pain we feel. This is the shame we feel. This is the nagging guilt, the moments of deep loneliness, the feelings of disconnection. This is why all men must apologize to their pregnant wives for all of the dumb things they do. This is why women should apologize to us for the moments when we are trapped with kidney stones. Being a human is filled with immense pain, sorrow and disconnection.
The hope is that we learn to not want to be God and strive to be ourselves. When we are human beings and seek God. When we allow ourselves to receive the pain, sorrow and disconnection and we are vulnerable in our humanity, it actually restores the very thing we are. This is the hope, that we do not suffer like those who have no hope. We learn to place God in his rightful throne and we learn to submit ourselves in fellowship with him. By restoring the right relationships, we can begin to experience the glory of what is. The glory of God, the glory of ourselves and the glory of others. By being human, we can begin to have eyes to see and ears to hear. The way we think, the way we feel, the way we live is transformed. By learning to love our humanity, we can begin to love that of others, even our enemies. We begin to pity them, rather than hate them. This is the way of Jesus that we see through out the Gospels. it’s the way of love, the way of weakness that leads us to a cross. The cross where Jesus did not take equality of God as his advantage but became human. This is the spiritual journey, learning to live, love and share our humanity. This is what Jesus came to do.
“For human beings, the most daunting challenge is to become fully human. For to become fully human is to become fully divine.” – Thomas Keating