I love this video, it sketches what was ultimately true of me for a long time. I have doubted, deconstructed, and fought against the Christian religion on the on the outside, while on the inside I have held onto a great source of hope and delight in God, or the ways could be. And, even though I deconstruct, I don’t have the cynical anger towards, like I used to, towards Christians who degrade the hope that I hold onto so strongly in my private self (maybe, what Jesus called the inner room). We live in cynical times but I don’t see all of the cynics deep down inside as a threat or a source of disappointment towards Christianity. Just as I understand why someone believes publicly but doubts privately, I also understand why someone doubts publicly and believes privately. To me, they are both necessary parts of the journey.
Cynical And Doubting Christianity