God is the infinite, he is Absolute, and because of this, God is always mysterious to us. One of the great failures as Christians has been to try to narrow this mystery down to a point where we say we “understand” it. It’s not that God is unknowable, but it is in fact that God is endlessly knowable. The great task of Christian spirituality will be of letting go of this knowing, so we can begin to know more.
Sometimes we feel trapped in prayer because we don’t feel God. Or, sometimes we feel trapped in our understanding of God because we can’t reconcile a view of God. The real task of our spiritual journey is to understand that not only is God including your thoughts and your feelings, but he transcends them as well. Prayer and reflection are not meant to be an exhausting and defeating time, because God is bigger than our thoughts and bigger than our feelings. The real task is learning to let go of our desire to control God; rather than force God into our preconceived notions of how we experience him and we must allow God to work as God sees fit.
The work of the lifetime is learning to open up our minds, hearts, and spirits so that maybe then we can have eyes to see and ears to hear, as Jesus wants for us. If we can continue to open up these spaces and hunger for more knowing, then we will learn to live at home in ourselves, with others and with the world, because we will have found a greater capacity for the Christ that lives within us.